Depression

[SchnidlersLeest]

Because I was being ridiculous. Really, I'm serious. I should know myself better than anyone, and looking back now no one imposed these thoughts on me besides myself. It really was me being ridiculous about trivial things that shouldn't have bothered me that much. No one else had ever imposed such feelings on me. Seriously, that's what I gather when thinking back on my life.

Stop trying to blame yourself. Your living the narrative that your parents used because it worked for them. If you were thinking ridiculously and they knew that, why didn't they try to help you?

I understand you may have just felt stressed out, but if your feelings reach a point of suicidal thoughts, that says to me there was more than just the concept of grades giving you anxiety.