Depression

[Damascus Rose]

Yeah I hate when people say stuff like "it's just a phase" "just get over it!" "everyone goes through the same thing". It's just not true and it's hurtful. Whoever says this stuff just doesn't understand it and sadly this is the reaction of probably most people, which is why I haven't told anybody except my family and a close friend. Sadly my mom said those things to me and it was pretty bad to hear, but my dad was supportive. It's a lot more than just sad feelings, it changes everything about your life, especially the way you see the world. Sometimes it's the worst thing just walking through halls at school seeing all the other people being happy while you feel like you're drowning. I was almost completely non-functional for a long time, I could never focus on anything or do any valuable work even when I did manage to go to school (im in highschool). I never attempted suicide and probably never will because I have people there for me, so I live for them until I get better enough to be living for myself as well. But I can say there are some times when everything feels so hopeless and death seems like the only option, but I know that will pass quickly if I just go walk around and take my mind off it.

Maybe everyone has phases where they feel depressed but I really doubt those people have something so severe as this. Maybe something is causing it in the short term and it will pass eventually for them, but for me I don't really know any cause, even if I do have 'nothing to worry about'. I think it's maybe just the way my mind works and my personality, that's the only thing that makes sense.