How to play amnesia without walkthroughs?

[Gruntficator]

Hey guys, I'm a new player of amnesia which I got it on the last humble indie bundle, I'm on the sewer part but did all the progress (starting in the back room) with looking at walkthroughs, I don't really enjoy the game (or any other games) playing with walkthroughs, I feel like a *ss playing with it, after I find a monster or two, I get freakin' scared and go check the walkthrough for monsters locations and where to hide, but I want to play the game nice and without having to friggin' pause at every second to check the walkthrough :/

But as i'm a freakin' scared *ss, I always go back at it, I want some help to stop playing with walkthroughs, only go and play nicely

Thanks for the help .o.
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Edit: Forgive me if this is the wrong area for it