Depression

[Paddy™]

Yeah, don't let anyone downplay what you're feeling just because you're a young fella. When I was in my teenage years, going through this same shit, I constantly heard things like "depressed? What do YOU have to be depressed about? You have no worries!" as if depression only strikes people with phone bills and unruly children.

I honestly believe that many of the teenage suicides we hear about could have been avoided had the kids in question been taken seriously. It certainly contributed to my own suicide attempt when I was 18; the frustration and the anger of being ignored or trivialised by some of the people closest to me really made things more unbearable than they needed to be.

As to why you might be feeling this way, that's another matter. You really should seek out therapy if it's available to you. Even if you can't afford a private therapist there are lots of volunteer-staffed organisations which will give you the same kind of help, and the ones which charge you money will only charge you a fraction of what you'd pay a private therapist. Many of them even operate online, through email. You live in Sweden, so you shouldn't have to pay anything, but the waiting lists for therapy are probably very long. I'm in Northern Ireland, and I had to wait 9 months before I was seen by a shrink (on two separate occasions many years apart), and that was only because I accepted a trainee shrink (again, same on both occasions), otherwise I'd have been waiting even longer! It sucks being mental and poor haha.

Don't let anyone tell you to "get over it" or "pull yourself together", and don't let anyone make you feel like you're exaggerating or making a big deal out of something which "all kids go through". It's all bullshit.

You're doing the right thing by just asking for advice, it's a very positive step. Keep it up.