Depression

[SchnidlersLeest]

Look at it this way from what I inferred from the posts I quoted from you. You say that you had suicide thoughts which were somewhat contributed from being trivialized by people close to you. If that was so, then why are you still here now, and not dead? I'd take a guess, and assume that you just got over it at some point.

It's not that you "get over it." It wasn't like some sort of emotional attachment or irrationality that led you to be suicidal. The people around you were assholes and you fought through it. It's not like committing suicide is something people want to do. It's choosing between two bad things and figuring out which is better.

I personally have also gone through similar phases where I felt depressed, and occasionally had suicidal thoughts, but they've all evaporated now. I guess that it has either been a result of, or have contributed to a view I now have on life that "Shit happens. Get over it, and complaining won't help anyone at all". Just a personal view on life though. Not something I'd impose on anyone else.

Well of course having been suicidal has affected your outlook on life. Your view of the world is shaped by your experiences, particularly when you are a child and an adolescent. The "shit happens and you gotta deal with it, don't complain" is in response to the fact that you went through some really hard shit and nobody tried to help you, and that's pretty terrible to happen to someone, and really shouldn't happen to children and teenagers.

I'm really sympathetic with the fact that you went through all this and anyone who does go through this. I think people started calling it a "phase" since it became so common, and it was a way of excusing parents from fucking up their kids' lives. It's referred to like its just some irrational feeling or anxiety you get when you're a teenager, but the reality is that we go through this for a reason.