Depression

[SchnidlersLeest]

The point I was trying to get at was that even though there may have been such a reason for me thinking that way, the "now me" does not regard it really as something that massively important in retrospective, and just something I went through, and got over which in reality wasn't that huge a deal now that I think about it

Getting past suicide seems like a pretty big life deal to me. But I assume you're talking what caused those thoughts. If your reaction to something in your life was irrational, then why were you thinking wrongly? What caused you to see things incorrectly is what I'm saying. IMO seems like it's usually the parents/caregivers having lied and whole lot to their children.

To offer more clarification...the things I was worrying about back then were grades. Just grades.

Exactly, and who caused you to obsess over your grades? Your parents and your teachers. I would say that's being responsible for your suicidal thoughts.