How have you changed in the past 3 years?

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The reason being I need more practise, learn more grammar rules and fill more my vocabulary, which is thin as a needle. I learn slowly and forget things fast, that is also one thing making things even more complicated.
I've already had a year learning curve, and still a lot of things I manage to write turn out not so promising.
It's not like I suffer from blank paper syndrome, I've actually thought a lot of interesting stuff, which needs to be written. But my inexperience is limiting it horribly, despite how much and how long I've been practising. I've even thought that maybe I lack talent and sense towards the whole hobby.